Remember you’re a…..

…well, you’re whatever you want to be, i guess.

Things are altogether a bit strange at the moment. Which makes it all the harder, blogging wise. I’m well aware that i’ve blogged a lot about Spain, and i’m trying to find usual day to day things to write about. But life just isn’t day to day right now. I’ve not settled, I still feel a little like i’m on holiday. My body is all out of sync, my brain is stressed and the two combined are making me feel rather ill.

On a positive, the apartment feels like home, well ‘a’ home now. Although home is still in the UK in my mind, i’m hoping that this will change pretty soon.

I’m blowing hot and cold. One moment, everything is glorious and the next moment i get hit by a whole load of ‘holy crap i’m living in another country, i miss my friends and my home and i don’t know anyone and i don’t want to go to work and i don’t want to have to walk up that big fucking hill (which i do, every time i want to go somewhere)’.

I was thinking of getting an old push bike, just to make getting some places a bit quicker….but then i really don’t think i’d be able to make it up the hill on a bike. I can only just make it walking. I’m torturing my poor little legs, and they’re not even getting thinner for it, they’re just screaming at me.

So now the sun is shining, i have a migrane, i drank too much orange juice and i have to go and sit on the bus for half an hour just to get somewhere.

I am a swirling mass of contradictions.

Things that are the same in Spain #2 and #3

I can’t even draw a straight line with a ruler, i never have been able to. And i can’t cut a straight line, even with a pencil line (that someone else drew) to follow…

So of course, things like being put in the woodwork class at school were never going to be a good idea. I got top marks for my designs and drawings of what my jewellery box would look like. In fact, last time i went to the school, they were still up on the wall. Making it was another matter. The sides were wonky. The joints were wonky. When it was glued together, it wasn’t as much ‘box’ but more like a slightly squiffy sideways diamond.

I’m game for a go anyway (pardon the expression) so when i had nothing to do the other day and i was in the crazy ‘Chinese’ shop (which sells just about everything you can think of from garden chairs and electrical plugs to loo brushes) i thought i would buy us a metal rack to put our shoes on - they’ve been scattered around the tiny apartment and The Boy keeps getting annoyed becasue i keep putting them away and he can’t find them in the bottom of the wardrobe (is this a man thing?).

It didn’t look to hard, two sides, four ‘baskets’ and four caster wheel things to put on the bottom. The packaging said clearly, in English ‘Easy to Assemble’. So off i went. Bending, pulling, pushing, stretching, banging. Sorted. And then there was a ‘ping’ and something popped out of place and it all fell apart. So i squealed, stomped around, took a deep breath and tried again. This time it was better, I even managed to get the wheels on before it all fell apart AGAIN and scooted off across the floor.

Two hours later and i thought that i’d just built up the patience to have another go. I was slow and methodical and didn’t throw or bang anything. And by Jesus i got it. No more shoes all over the floor! Just don’t be too rough with it or it might ping apart.

So, things that are the same in Spain:

2. I can’t do DIY

3. I have a short temper.

Mi Casa, not su casa….

So, i jacked in the job. I just couldn’t do it. Yes i’m a failure but i’m sure i’ll find something else soon. Meanwhile, here’s some housey news for you! (Sorry guys, it’s all a bit girly)

We’ve spent a bit of our savings on doing up the apartment to make it a bit like home, well i spent our money to do up the apartment…. i think The Boy likes it but he’s left it pretty much up to me. So i’ve got some before and after pictures of the lounge/diner for you….

Before:

After:

The bedroom has to wait. We’ve ordered a new bed which should be coming this week sometime and we need to get some additional storage space, as you can see:

Now i guess i’d better go and find me a job….

Back, with a-vengance (or is it avengence?)

Anyway, i’m back. And i have a hell of a lot to catch up on, i might take a while to get to you!

This week, the family have been visiting (my parents, my sister and her man and The Boy’s Mum and Step-Dad). Now they’re all gone, i feel a bit lost and the apartment is lovely and a mess all at the same time (but that’s for another post).

All week was spent up in the mountains at their apartment. I almost stole the tiny dog next door because he was left on his own a lot of the time. If The Boy wasn’t allergic, then i would have stuck him in my beach bag and brought him home.

It was nice to see the family but it made the week feel like a holiday which didn’t make it any easier getting up and going to work! I’m surprised how ok i’ve been being so far from home, but the real test is now as i won’t see any of the family until July. I’ve been in a muddled state of mind since we got here and as of yet i’ve not shaken it off. I’m hoping i will now that things are getting a bit more settled in.

I’m still not sure that i feel quite at home, and after this week not even being in our house, it just feels like i’m on holiday! We went shopping for things for the apartment and it’s looking a thousand times better, (I’ll post some pictures once it’s all tidied) and we have a new bed coming next week (King size!! weeee).

As for work, that’s a bit up in the air. The people aren’t all my cup of tea and last week they decided that i will be selling. I can’t sell, I can’t do people, all of which i have told them, but if i don’t do the selling, i won’t have a job…… so i’m looking around for something else at the moment…

That’s all a bit vague. But that’s how i’m feeling. Now i have to catch up with you all.

Tan Watch

The tan is coming on nicely. Still using a nice high factor so that i don’t get all wrinkled like a prune.

I need more of a tan on my legs. They’re a bit white compared to the rest of me.

In other news.

Last night i had a dream about Peter from Heroes
well, him and his younger brother (who was actually him as well) and ooooooooo he’s a better kisser than Dream Noel Fielding.

The T-Shirt Tan

I bet you’re all just really desparate to know what’s been going on….. what do you mean you’d forgotten all about me?!

So this time i’m not going to try and put pictures in, they can wait for another day, not just becasue it will annoy me beyond belief but also because i’m sitting in a bar, on the beach and using their computer!

Things have been good, this is just a flying update as we have all of our family visiting this week so we don’t have much time between that and working to ge on the computer, but i bet that will change next week when we’re left all on our own again! It is very strange working in a hot country. I feel like i should just be sitting on the beach but i have to get all dressed up and go to work.

• I have a tan (pictures to come)
• We’re more settled in
• The people at work aren’t really my kind of people so i might look for something else
• The weather has been lovely
• Everyone here has tiny dogs
• My hair is all crazy, time to try out a Spainsh hairdresser
• I’ve been walking more than i think i have in my life. Everything you could possibly want is up a hill of some sort. I will be made of muscle soon
• I’ve managed to have a nice bath with my lovely lush stuff.

How are things with all of you?

P.S. Sorry for the non commenting, I’ll catch up soon